Doubt

My doubt paralyzes me, leaves me bereft and confuses me. Which reality is real? Smooth words of this world tell me that i can justify anything and the God of my childhood is no more than a christian santa claus. Doubts fill my mind and blind my eyes until i am ready to believe this world and the deceiver, ready to throw away the laws i have tried so hard to live by, The grace i always felt, the love and peace of the other world.
Then he comes.
I see a light in my blindness, a light that does not come from this world i have been tempted to believe in. This light comes from within me telling of a great romance it comforts me. It makes me feel loved and cherished, fills me with peace. I have been chosen I am loved. He tells me of the real world where light abounds, This world is truth, light and fulfillment. Forgiveness and love dwell in this world. I will not believe the lies. I look to the light.