relativity

The theory of relativity is an especially interesting one to me. Everyday i come across this, when im working and there are no customers i am bored. what is boredom? i think its another theory something we make up as an excuse not to do anything. Time goes so slowly when you are bored, yet when you are doing the same thing with someone next to you that is making jokes it goes really fast in an enjoyable way. Why is this? is this because we are not imaginative enough to think of other things to do? is it because in our society we are constantly entertained and have no idea how to tap the potential of our minds? i say yes to these, because i am sad at how insanely stupid i can be sometimes. relativity is interesting. What is time how long are seconds, minutes hours? ask anyone doing something they dont like to do and miserable second after miserable second fell like hours. Does anyone find it funny that people hate their jobs and think say talking to strangers and having to be nice is insanely boring and pointless, but then on their way home from work they make the same type of conversation with a person in line at the supermarket? Why ? why must we be dissatisfied with things just because it is a stigma of disagreableness attached to anything pertaining to work? Why is everything relative?

12:32 am

Man, again i am not getting my beauty rest! I am up looking over my papers for school and liking what i see. As much as i may complain about school i really love doing the papers and pushing myself to my limit. Not much of a social life when you're stuck in front of a computer on your time off from a full time job, but i'll manage i guess. This is one class! I really dont know how people do this full time school full time job thing, i makes me crazy and really tired just thinking of having two classes instead of this one! Oh well up again late at night wondering if i want to go to bed or stay up on the computer do schoolwork? go to bed? watch tv? hmmmmm

Triumph!

I have completed the evil term paper of doom!!!!! This is my greatest accomplishment!(in the las week at least) I am soooo watching tv for the next two days staight!

Doubt

My doubt paralyzes me, leaves me bereft and confuses me. Which reality is real? Smooth words of this world tell me that i can justify anything and the God of my childhood is no more than a christian santa claus. Doubts fill my mind and blind my eyes until i am ready to believe this world and the deceiver, ready to throw away the laws i have tried so hard to live by, The grace i always felt, the love and peace of the other world.
Then he comes.
I see a light in my blindness, a light that does not come from this world i have been tempted to believe in. This light comes from within me telling of a great romance it comforts me. It makes me feel loved and cherished, fills me with peace. I have been chosen I am loved. He tells me of the real world where light abounds, This world is truth, light and fulfillment. Forgiveness and love dwell in this world. I will not believe the lies. I look to the light.

3am

Its interesting how your mind works early in the morning. When i wake up before the sun it feels like i can do anything. I own this dark and sleeping world and i make what happens this day.