That one word describes my life right now. My heart has never been so passionately in love with christ! He has shown me wonderous things and proved himself time and time again. My sinful heart kept doubting and pulling away from his love, never knowing how wonderful he was. I kept my eyes closed, I thought of worldly things when he spoke to my heart so i wouldnt have to try, i wouldnt have to commit to anything. I kept my feelings hidden from everyone, and especially those that had the most impaact on me. I could never cry, couldnt be weak. I wouldn ot listen, but he kept pushing he didnt give up on me. He never does. Now i can finally see, i am so sad at all the years i have missed out on being so lukewarm.
I was looking up to the sky today marveling at the beauty of the mountains and i started singing along to a worship song. I wanted so badly to be with god at that moment it almost hurt, i read his word and feel his love . I get a glimpse of his glory when i worship him, but to see his throne with jesus sitting at the right hand , to see my savior shining in his glory and the angels singing. ohhh to see that someday will be my greatest delight!
This world is not enough for me anymore. I have never felt such dissatisfaction with my world and yet been so full of joy. I am getting to where i would rather read my bible on my lunch breaks than eat. i have to make a concious effort to fall asleep at night instead of thinking of all the great things god has done and will do. I find that i dont want to talk about petty daily things anymore, I want to know that others have this same love and passion, i have. I have to share what god has done in my heart. Nothing else is worth talking about. I dont know if i will ever be satisfied until i get to heaven!
